STONED SOBER: Lainie Ruth's Story
My name is Lainie Ruth and this is my recovery story.
By: Laine Ruth | April 11th, 2019
Today I am alive, well, and sober over 10 years because of cannabis.
Speaking properly, I use cannabis as a medication-assisted-treatment (MAT), also known as harm-reduction therapy for my substance use disorder. Not only does cannabis maintain my sobriety, it also aides my chronic back pain and debilitating panic attacks.
As a young child, I encountered severe emotional/verbal abuse and suffered multiple incidents of sexual abuse. My addictive behaviors began soon after, at around 10 years old. I would sneak wine out of the refrigerator at night and would steal cigarettes whenever I had the chance. At 15 years old, I was forced out of a long running soccer career by fracturing my lower back during a game. I was left with persistent pain and a lost identity, which sent my substance use disorder into hyper-speed.
During an alcohol induced blackout at 16,
I crashed my mother’s car into a tree five times. Five times!
How do you crash into a tree 5 times, you ask? Witnesses to the accident saw me reverse the car and hit the accelerator multiple times. I was totally unaware of what was happening. Finally, the car rolled onto its side and I was rushed to a psychiatric ward for two weeks. Months later, I was admitted into a 45-day young adult program at one of the states finest addiction treatment centers. There, I was taught that abstinence and the 12-Step Program was the only path to sobriety.
While AA did help me remain abstinent from ages seventeen to nineteen, it failed to work for the long-term. On my 2 year sober anniversary, I relapsed on cocaine and became a daily user. It ended in a frightening accidental overdose.
After this overdose, I became desperate for an alternative healing, since all treatments had failed me so far.
A very dear friend presented me with an idea: try replacing dangerous substances, like alcohol and cocaine, with a safer, non-addictive substance - like cannabis. The biggest advantage with cannabis was the fact that there is no overdose. Thus, I tried the “marijuana maintenance” plan. I could use it to combat cravings, depression and pain. After many healthy lifestyle changes and cannabis, I became more aware of the world around me and my creativity, empathy, and spirituality grew immensely. It encouraged me to grow into the human I’d always hoped to be.
In 2013, I founded a support community called Maintaining My Recovery with Cannabis (MMRC).
I created MMRC for people using cannabis in recovery for substance use disorder. MMRC has a large following of over 1.2K members with a one-of-a-kind support forum on Facebook, while also offering other peer support programs through the MMRC website. We are an all-inclusive group that allows people using all types of recovery methods.
Our goal is to remain a supportive structure that cultivates positivity and acceptance, and encourages healthy behaviors. MMRC promotes harm-reduction principles and cannabis use in recovery.
I sincerely thank amazing organizations like Cannabis for Breakfast and Oov Lifestyle for sharing my story and other information with such a positive elegance!
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